choices

right now i feel like im at the crossroads of so many decisions

i feel like these thoughts and choices are spinning out of control in my head

the job opportunities and school are a lot

i decided i was going to drop my a&p 2 class so i wouldn't be away from my lil man

4 nights a week

but then i felt i lost my goal

my goal is my R.N. not working an admin job so i can get my foot in the door at a hospital

so it remains uncertain 

what is greater importance

i need a job

but it has to be in the schedule best for my family

i cannot work every weekend and be away from my lil one

i don't know how some parents are never there

i mean being away pulls at my heartstrings

i have another job opportunity that is part time 3 days a week

which sounds great that way it would take no time away from my lil one

and i could do school 2 nights a week

 choices are ridiculous!

some sound so great though when you really think it over 

it's pretty lousy

i mean im honored to get this chance to work at one of boston's greatest hospitals

but it's really not the ideal job, it's so i'll have a foot in the door

and the thing that sucks is i would work every weekend

so even though this is the ideal opportunity

when you look closer it isn't

so i'm choosing family and my R.N. even if i don't get the other day opportunity

i would rather work at dunkies mom's hours and work on my goal to my R.N.